From Russia with love

Hello darling!
A new day of my life finished again, and I'm writing you a letter. Sean, unfortunately I do not have picture in a red dress. But if you to me will sometime buy a red dress it I shall frequently put on for you. I have nothing interesting to tell you. Maybe because the most interesting moment of my present life is you. You are as shaft of light in my daily routine. As for today, I visited some of my friends, did a lot of work and duties and helped my friend with her removal in the new apartment. Thus it is the all. How are you getting along? I am very glad that you also want to meet me. It put me in good mood. In the morning I wake up thinking about you, when I'm in the street I think about you, I go to bed and think about you again... everywhere... constantly... The thought about our meeting never leaves me... I believe that soon I'll come to you, we'll be together and will enjoy the pleasures of life. I really dream about it... I hope my dreams will come true. Sean, you can't imagine how difficult for me to sit here and write you a letter, when I know that I can't see you, embrace you and kiss you. We have never met before, but it seems to me that I know you for a long time... you understand me, our views, opinions, outlooks on life are alike...I personally think that for two people to be happy together they must be able to respect one another, and their interests must be alike. Frankly speaking, I consider you to be the very man, with whom I want to spend my future life ...I hope you think the same. It's really pity that a part of the globe separates us from each other. It is unfair... But I really believe that the best part of my life is ahead, the moment when we'll be together. And I don't know how long this moment will last - it is in the hands of fate - but I'm sure it will be the happiest moment in my life... I am very happy that you appreciate the idea to meet!!! I hope that in next letters we will discuss all the details. With love, your baby!

Lika,

Thank you for your lovely letter. I wish to send you a lovely present.Where shall I mail it to? Also, I think you should come here. We could meet somewhere else if you like, but here it would be easier for me. How shall we arrange that? I think in March it would be best. Let me know your thoughts on this darling!
Sean.

I've Won The Love Of A Russian Girl But First I Must Send Money So She Can Fly Here And Our Hearts Can Be Together

Hello honey!
How are you today? Hope you are well. You know, i was thinking a lot about us today. Yesterday i talked to my mum by phone and we talked about you for a hour. She is really glad that i found such a good and intelligent man, and she wishes me all the best. She and my father hope that one day they will be able to make acquaintance with you in reality. But before i think we have to meet in person. I really wish you come to me but i live here with a girl-friend so it will be difficult.
And frankly i am not ready to meet here, i don't know you pretty well, but i also think that we have to meet alone...somewhere in another place! I think that we have to know each other better, to become closer. Now there are only messages among us and i think it is not enough. I think it could be wonderful if we could meet for several time together. I think it could be fantastic to see each other in reality, to kiss and hug, to love!What do you think about next month? May be i could come to you or we could meet somewhere in another place?
Let's talk about it! And what are your
thoughts, Sean ?
I also want to say that I'm healthy at last. I recovered from my illness and now I'm full of energy and eager to start my real life. Tomorrow I'll come back to work. So my home imprisoning will be finished :) I also want to thank you for your being in my life!
Hope to hear from you soon. Tender kisses, Lika

Dearest Lika:
How can I explain how excited I am to receive your letter? Thank you for the lovely pictures, I think of them often. I am so glad to hear that your sickness has passed -- truly I was worried for you! I think us meeting would make my heart happy. I have often dreamt of us together somewhere. I often dream of you in a red dress with blue shoes. Darling, do you have such a dress? It would make me happy to see a picture of you in such a dress!

Here it is cold and snowy. I will dream of us together in your dress someplace warm and by the ocean.

I hope to hear back from you soon!
Kisses,

sean.

Thinspiration

"I stuck to my plan today except I had a chocolate kiss (23cals) :( but I did a few extra sit-ups." -- random, 43 things.

Love Trek

Phone messages June 1998

pro ana

am 5 foot 7 inches, 20 years old and 140 pounds on the dot. I know it is embarrassing. I Have a flat stomach coated with a really thin layer of fat. My problem is my back hips and ass are huge. I am disgusting and deformed. I had always been a 00 size up until i was like 16. I need to fit in a zero again not a size…. 6… Please help me. I don’t eat much and at dinner with family I cant eat much at all even if i try. I ate a peanut granola bar and 1 1/2 small cups of coleslaw like 4 normal bites like 20 for me today. I drink a gallon of Arizona Green Tea a day. I eat small bites and over chew my food and i am still fat. i have only lost 5 pounds and i stopped eating normally 3 months ago. I am a mechanic so I am always exercising at work but i am so worn out from not eating and working so hard when i get home i crash and don’t move unless i am having sex with my husband which i always do all the work i like it better that way and i can think about how much i can burn but i am still fat!!!!
What am i doing wrong why am i still fat? please help.
kittie

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Throw up on 43 things

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Because sometimes Electrical Engineering sucks ass

It's true...sometimes it does suck ass. Why? The easy answer is 'nothing works as expected'. There are about a million ways something might not work...bad design, bad part datasheet, bad tools, bad layout, wrong part in the bin, bad software, bad part, etc. Depending on how things fail and don't work will let you know right away how sucky the problem is really going to be.

The hard part is that there are a lot of variables to consider when looking for the answer to some problem. Maybe the boss pushes some button on a computer and wonders why your system doesn't do what it's supposed to...so what is wrong? Is it the computer software? Is it sending bad data or no data at all? Maybe it's the stupid cable. Does the board get the signal? Is the processor doing something else and is too busy to deal with the command? Is there a hardware problem? A target firmware problem? A compiler problem?

Compiler problems are the worst... basically you write all this neat software that is supposed to run a certain way. The compiler converts your software to machine language that the processor can deal with...BUT basically every time they update the compiler (think weekly) there is a real chance for a compiler BUG. Basically that means you have to dig through assembly and figure out why your code isn't being compiled correctly. That really sucks.

I dealt with a problem today that really kind of sucked. Basically the entire system communicates over a serial interface to all the chips on 3 different boards -- at 9.1Mbps. There is a FPGA (big logic thing) that takes data frames from the processor and routes all the SPI bus data to the correct chips. For instance, send 0x80 to the fpga and it knows to route the following data to ADC1 and assert a 3 bit mux decode. Here is how it sends data: stuff a byte (8 bits) of data to a register on the processor and it spits out serial data. Easy. Well, sometimes, not every time, the fucking thing spits out 16 or more clocks...which is impossible...and totally screws the SPI router in the FPGA. So you look. The processor vendor says 'impossible'. Hey, it's right there! LOOK! You dig and dig. Is it a bad processor? Is the FPGA state machine fucked up? Are the level shifters, which are bi-directional, shifting direction?

Do you start ripping parts off the board (never fun)? Well, one part on the bus only runs to 4mhz...you know that. The plan is to slow the SPI bus down when you talk to it. The part has a chip select, which basically means it doesn't (or shouldn't) give a shit what is on the SPI bus until you WANT it to....but here is the glitch. THIS part comes in different versions. Some version run on the I2C bus, which has this bonus feature of holding the clock line low when it needs more time to do something... maybe the dorks shared some logic between the parts...hell, it's probably the same die with a different bondout. So, basically the answer is this dorky part is fucking up the bus when it shouldn't, which is causing the processor to shift out extra clocks on the SPI bus because it's clock logic is tied to it's input buffer on the clock out pin, which isn't meeting the correct logic levels, which is fucking the SPI router in the FPGA, which means that bad data is coming back from the ADC, which basically means that when the boss pushes the button on the computer it doesn't do what it's supposed to and he wonders what you just fucked up.

Wed

Sick or not, I need to go in to the office. I'm already behind as it is.

Also, I'm just not that thrilled lately. It's cold, work is monotonous, it's dark, and the usual fixes do nothing -- dating, chocolate, good wine, good food, etc. The only good thing is that my workouts are getting better -- I'm on the stair climber for about 45 minutes a day around a 80% training heart rate. Weightlifting is going so-so...

I'm in limbo.

I debated going to Mexico with a group over April and doing some scuba diving...but who am I kidding -- that costs money and I have none. Having a real job basically means you work harder for a lot less money, and why should I be thrilled about that?

Sick

I've been sick for a couple of days....I feel fine for a while, then eat something, then want to puke. Not an ideal way to spend your days.

Yesterday I spent most of the day sleeping.

A boarding kind of weekend

Sister flew in on Thursday with her friend Candice...Brother drove in from springs and we spent thur-sat night up in winter park. I brought my old burton rock board -- I haven't gotten around to putting the new oxygen board together.

I did ok boarding...not as good as if I was skiing, but I like boarding better anyway. I skipped any photo-inspiring cartwheels down the mountain this time.

I haven't taken the xmas tree down yet...it's still alive so I've been procrastinating. I should probably get to that today.

I'm trying to decide if I want to take a trip to Cozumel this year. There is a group going in April and the price is pretty good...I'm just not sure I could find enough to do for a week other than diving...and I've been to Mazatlan plenty of times to know that by the third day you're ready to give up booze for life.

Thomas the dog is over at Robin's place. I should probably go fetch the furry little fucker sometime today as well.

I have a Mexican theme dinner here at the house on Thursday and a multi-day snow shoeing / hut trip this weekend.

Monday

Monday... like bliss wrapped up in a towel full of dog crap.

I have a Chinese dinner tomorrow night...wed out with lisa-jen, thursday sister flies into town (unless the storm gets here first) then off to winter park for a weekend of skiing.

Cabaret

Shoes

Executive branch on the prowl

Who needs separation of powers between the Executive and Legislative branch of government anyway? All we really need is a president with a pen. When signing postal legislation Bush added this little gem:

"The executive branch shall construe subsection 404(c) of title 39, as enacted by subsection 1010(e) of the act, which provides for opening of an item of a class of mail otherwise sealed against inspection, in a manner consistent, to the maximum extent permissible, with the need to conduct searches in exigent circumstances, such as to protect human life and safety against hazardous materials, and the need for physical searches specifically authorized by law for foreign intelligence collection.

GOD bless America and its war of terror against her own citizens.

If I looked this good

I'd never wear clothes.

I'm going to order one of those mind erasing kits.

Zorak:
All right, here's the plan. We create a diversion by throwing the planet's orbital axis off by 13 degrees. Actually, 10 degrees should do it. You don't want to throw it off too much because, well, you know. (Pause.) Now, once we've lowered the gravitational fields by, say, 40 gigawatts and secured the outer perimeter...securely...well I, I think we'll be just fine.